Sunday, May 29, 2011
Why do i keep getting this feeling like im alway a "2nd" friend to everybody. It's like when everybody is having fun, they alway or tend to forget me. Then when they have nobody to chat or slack with, they call me. Haiyo, pathetic me. Still haven forget about what one of my friend said to me that time when me and a group of friends quarrel. "You are my friend? Not really, you are my Dog actually" This was actually what he said... Know what? This was the most hurtful stuff i've heard from my friend. Can you imagine after you treated them so good and this is how they think of you. :'( Up till now, im still thinking about it.. I've been hurt very very deeply.. by my own friends.. And yet i kept it inside. Nobody knows how i feel. All my friends thought that im fine cause im alway a joker and a cheerful person. Yes! I may be a cheerful and a joker, but everybody sure have a weakpoint inside their heart.. Im alway trying to be a joker to make everybody laugh so that i can feel better. But everytime i think about the sentence that friend said to me. I feel very very hurt inside my mind and heart.. Maybe i ain't a good friend? I dont know. Nowadays friends of mine are learning bad things. I tried to convince them and they said im irritating. How cool is that eh? Guess im too busybody afterall.. All i want is for all my friends to acknowledge me as a friend of theirs and stop treating me like a "2nd" friend. ): That's all i ask for..
alonne inn thhe darkk
6:00 PM
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Sweet! Got my bike on thursday! :D Oh man, although it isnt a very good one. But it's still good and smooth to ride on. xD Oh man, so addicted to cycling now, cycle until the knee there pain inside. :x LOL, oh well? HAHA. :D
alonne inn thhe darkk
12:23 AM
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Hmm, I dont know things is getting better or getting worse. It's like there is a miserable feeling inside of me. The sadness, hates.. and the anger... It's ruin my happy self. I've alway trying to be there for others that needed comfort or help. But why is it that im trying so hard to be a good friend to everybody and everyone just cant see it.. Sometimes I blame myself for being too faithful in friendship. Whenever i saw my friends is learning bad or going the wrong way. I often tried to stop them and alway being ended up hated and ignored. I really wonder what does it means to be a true friend. Some say true friend means that when you are really in need of help or at the end of your rope, that friend will help you no matter what it takes. But all i see is when a friend wanted to be truthful and help the other party. The other party just take things for granted and instead of thanking that friend, he/she will hate and go against him/her.. Sigh, am i really stupid or is it im too naive to believe in such friendship stuff... how i wish i mean something to my friends instead of a annoying fellow. Nvm.
alonne inn thhe darkk
8:37 PM
Friday, May 6, 2011
AHHHHHHH, thinking of the $160 bike, think until crazy. Although it's not a good bike but it's beautiful. I want it. I scare by right i save up already, the bike kena buy by other ppl already. T_T Sheesh... why like that..
alonne inn thhe darkk
10:08 PM
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Gosh, stress in school man. Report and work everyday, Dont know how to handle sometimes. x.x But lucky i met some good ITE friends who is helping me out somehow. I really owe it to them sometimes. :) Hahas, okok. Nothing to update nowadays. As usual lor. Hang out with Jun hao they all. Nothing to do, just sit at skygarden chat, slack and stare at each other. But sometimes it's fun cause we know how to have fun ownselve. :D LOL, ok la. I nothing more to say ler. Will update next time bah. Byee peeps! ^^
Hmm.. Im the person who dont bear grudges, i dont wish to detest and hate anyone. I just want people to be my friends. I dont hate her anymore, I want her to be my friend. But it's just so hard cause it's so awkward. Hmm, oh well! I think i wil try to take the first step bah? HAHAS. :)
alonne inn thhe darkk
11:24 PM
